Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Rainy days....

This night I listen to the radio. My previous plan was reading some technical documentations but my mood took me away anyway. Have been given a moment to breath in and breath out, I feel something strange. Like something has been missing from me for all the time. Weird....

The radio host told me a story about an orphan. He invited all of us to cherish what we have had right now and never complained about our life. Yes, it is a fact that there are a lot of more unfortunate people, poorer than me out there. But it is also a fact that the world are going to more cruel state.

People are getting colder and colder day after day. They tend to think only about their joy, their interest, their racism, their religion, their party, their country and so on. Different people live different purpose. Some of them fight really brave and taste the glory, some of them fall and must admit defeat. This is our society right now. The days which we can feel the warm of love have been gone. And the fact that I'm part of this society gives me mixed feeling....

I believe everyone hopes for better future. But no matter how big the cruiser ship we take, even it's as big as titanic, sometimes it still won't be enough for carrying all of us. Just like the scene in the falling ship in titanic movie, sometimes people must be sacrificed for others' survival. And the survivor is normally the strongest in the society. They have strength more than other people, whether the strength is positive or negative, that's out of questions. Some people do play tricks for being able to survive. It's no wonder because our nature teach us like that...

Have you wonder why butterfly has different color? Have you wonder why chameleon can change its color instantly? Even some birds fool others for nurturing their offsprings. This world is full of tricks and hallucination! Some tricks are easy to guess in the blink of an eye, others are really hard to digest. It makes our life journey more interesting and challenging, to pursue the righteous and honest life will always be faced with a swaying road. Sometimes we stumble and fall in the path we decided to take. Sometimes we take a glimpse of others and envy of them, it's natural....

Imagining what if we are in different path than we have taken, maybe our life story will be different. Every single days, we wake up and endure our routines without a chance for thinking what is the purpose of doing it. Sometimes our mundane activities just too much, hence we play our role automatically. Seems like our brain has been infected by some nasty resident programs we could not erase. Any effort for eliminating it would be a general failure and create a very famous BSOD. Damn it!

It's been a long time for me longing for meeting someone I admire and need me the most. Sometimes I wonder, is my destiny ended up in other continent? Maybe there I will meet girl with honest smile and pure heart, who loves me because of my all. Like the staring of shy girl I met in the Orchard road a few days ago. She is cute and we both feel really shy. We did nothing but stealing chances for take a glance at each other :).

Will I meet someone like the Orchard girl again, will I meet someone who will take my hand and accompanying me in sailing through our life?

The road is still a long way to go. It's so interesting, makes me excite everytime I think of it. Because we will never know what're waiting for us tomorrow. Everytime we wake up, we are given a blank paper which we write our adventure into it in the end of the day. I really hope I can fill in into its fullest, never wasted anything and hope someday I will be able to write somebody's name into it. Someone I adore and love for the rest of my life........

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Best $200 Digital Camera...

For those folks who are looking for new digital camera to replace their old one which obsolete, recently I read many digital camera reviews and there are several $200 digital cameras which are worthy to be mentioned ;)

The first and second are FujiFilm S5700 and its sibling S5800 which both are sold at $195 and $210. Let's talk about them one by one ;)


FujiFilm S5700 is a 7.1 MPixels camera. It has 10x fujinon optical zoom lens which are good for long-distance zooming. From what I see in digital camera reviews, this camera has good image quality but suffer from purple fringing. But the features it offers are superb, besides for prosumer digital camera, its price is the lowest while carrying fuji famous name.


Now, let's talk its big brother, S5800. S5800 has many similar characteristics like S5700 has : long 10x fujinon optical zoom lens, good -typical fuji- image quality and even share the same purple fringing problem. The price difference is only $15 and with it we will get additional 1 GB SD Card bundled and a little more pixels size since this camera can shoot 8 MPixels picture.


Now, let's us come to the last contender. Canon Powershot S720 IS. Canon Powershot S720 IS is sold at $220. While it is the most expensive among the others and bundled with nothing, Canon Powershot S720 IS has the best image quality among the others. The sharpness it produces is so damn good and with 6x optical zoom capability, this camera is fit for every home user who want to capture beautiful images. Although if we compare with both fuji's prosumer digital camera above, this Canon lacks of more advanced features and simply offered as point and shoot camera.

So which one I would choose personally? Definitely, I'll choose Canon over Fuji. Although Fuji has many features and its 10x zoom lens is really appealing, but I really love the image quality produced by Canon. The differences is not really obvious but as an ordinary user who doesn't understand of how to operating digital camera professionally, simple point and shoot camera is just better for me anyway :)

Friday, July 4, 2008

Frustrated....

Today, I'm taking my time for intropecting all that happens in my life. Somehow, it makes me frustrated. Having been a middle age man, I realize what I have achieved today is nothing!
All my achievement is still ordinary one and remembering the fact that that sacrifies many things, I feel very disappointed :(.

As a technology enthusiats, I really love to read a new technology invention everyday. Tomshardware and anandtech is two compulsory website I must visit everyday :). But sometimes this makes me really upset, knowing what I can do is only see and watch new technologies discovered day after day without any opportunity to experience them....Somehow it's getting me frustrated!

What can I do? As a ordinary civilian who strives in hectic days everyday, I must save my bucks mostly for the future as there are many basic needs that I must fulfill in. These needs of course override my nerds instinct. Everyday, I must try hard to supress my longing of having newest technology at hand. What a shame considering I, myself, are working in IT industry....And yes somehow it's getting me frustrated!

And while my colleagues, one by one, are getting married, I can only watch the scene in distance. My unique and stupid situation does not allow me to be close to somebody else. How regretful. The most funny thing is when people greet me and they assume me have a wonderful life. They just couldn't get the picture, aren't they? What lies beneath the surface, they won't know if they don't dive deeper. But as I am the guardian of the watergate, I can't allow anyone drive closer to the bottom. It's so complex that it's getting me frustrated!

Terrible global economy also hampers my daily life. Our government has raised liquid petroleum gas price two days ago, following the raising of fuel price. It's a snowball effect and I can expect electricity and water bill will increase in near future. But our government is still tolerance for its poor people since the fuel is only raised about 30%. Well, not because the number is very small, but if we compare it to our neighbor countries like Malaysia and Singapore, for example, Indonesian people can be considered lucky!

To be frank, at the day the fuel price is raised, I felt anger as well. Feeling like I want to be part of mass demonstrating in front of our MPR/DPR building. The feeling is getting even more stronger after I read john perkins' book titled "Confession of economic hit man" telling his story of fooling our government for making it fell into debt web and therefore be loyal for capital emperium. That's really a damned story which will make every reader from third world countries want to rebel againts the supreme countries like USA and England.

Now the anger has reduced a little bit but I feel very sorry as living cost has raised much because of this global oil price problem. It's kind of walking backward. Thank god, my salary has been raised this year. At least I can stand still this year, not move forward nor backward. But standing still is not good option either, somehow I really dislike the idea. And this thing make me frustrated at best!

Why some people who have been in the top of power never think about the people who have in lower position? Many people suffer because of small number of selfish stupid people like George W. Bush or Osama Bin Laden. Will they ever think of others instead of their own interest?

And the most funny thing I see today is the news that Toyota, a famous car brand, reported that it has gained increase in car sales outside Java island. Really funny! Some people demonstrate on the street yelling that the fuel price hike cannot be tolerated since it will kill many people by starvation slowly. The other story, the car sales fact, tells us that some people aren't impacted by this situation and go ahead of possesing their dream car. What an irony!

Maybe it's time I slap my cheek so hard that I can be sober for living my life as is. It needs more patience - which I lack - and persistence for enduring hardship through my lifeline.

Sometimes I really wish there had already been someone beside me, supporting me and preventing me of retreating to my shell.....I really wish...