It's been so long...

Today finally I have time to update my blog again :D. Whoa, a lot have been happened to me and so far my very careful act has proven its usefulness.

As I've ever said in the beginning of this year that this ox year will bring doom to me if I act recklessly. That's one of the reason I rejected the offer from overseas company offering me a valuable salary this year. And guess what? My rejection has paid its price very well :). It's not caused of my raised salary. Well, if I compare my salary now with the offer I got, the number really becomes tiny. It's especially because this year my parent got heart attacks - twice. Fortunately, my parent still survives and I was able to visit when my parent is in hospital.

Anyone who read this maybe thinks how I really love my parent. Well, actually I don't. There is a part of me that really hates my parent. But I think I am still a good child by trying to tolerate the mess they bring to my life. And anyway, if I cannot give love to my parents then to whom should I give? None.

This month I become exactly thirty years old. And having lack of friends remembering my birthday showing that I'm no one but a forgotten being. But that's okay, I have been used to it anyway :P. Every year always the same, no celebration, no cake to cut, no party, nothing. The only thing that always come and I must face every year is trouble!

Sometimes I just wanna yell to the GOD, saying He is not fair to me by obliging me to solve problem caused by somebody else. I really hope that my uneasy life will become better and better each day. I fight everyday for it and sometimes losing my spirit because somehow there is somebody who drags me down again and again, making me frustrated.

But the fighting still continues anyway. And this month I have leaned one step closer to CCIP. How about my JNCIP? Well, I try to forget it for a while because there are no fixed schedule anyway. In near future, the closest targets I want to achieve are JNCIA-FW and JNCIS-FW. It's my debt for more than two years. Or in other words, it's been more than two years ago the last time I did firewall project. And this year, my boss gave me a small firewall project to deploy. It's only three ISG 1000 boxes for Telkom. Piece of cake.

But I'm happy anyway as this bring dejavu for me. Finally I have a lot of time for preparing the exam since the devices I must deploy won't be available at least until August :P. After this, maybe I continue studying CCIP again. And if by no means I pass CCIP before be able to take JNCIP, then it will be an irony for me.

Well, I'm a Juniper engineer working in Juniper distributor company but being certified as Cisco Professional engineer instead of Juniper. Sound stupid, eh :D.