JNCIP Exam again, finally....

It's been a long time since I updated my blog for the last time. Well, I've been busy - as always. One of the reason that keeps me really busy is I will undergo JNCIP exam again at the end of this month. Finally, the time has come again for me :). I'm really excited this time.

And this time my preparation is really better than the past. I've done JNCIP lab since last week...uhmm repeating the same lab that I had practised at the beginning of this year when my JNCIP application is rejected by my superior.

It almost two years since my last JNCIP exam. And yes, I have forgotten all the exam questions I had before. But I have no worries since I'm now very comfortable with myself. And last *cough* Cisco *cough* test showed me my strength and weakness :D. I'm really aware of it and I know I have to do practice it more in the next few weeks if I want to make sure I'll 100% pass it.

I know there are people who dislike me and I believe they will be very happy if something wrong happens and I fail in the exam again. But suppose I fail again, it won't be the end for me because I will pursue this eventhough I have to use my own money. This time, I'm really happy because my company are willing to sponsor me again :D.

Maybe because I haven't received any trainings in the last 1,5 years from my company. But that's quite understandable because I think I made some people very upset by resigning from my position in OSS and chosen to take the Routing path more seriously. And have I told you that I still keep my IVCD certificate safe in my home instead of submitting it to my company :P?

They don't appreciate my work well as an IVCD holder so I think it's best if I frame it and hang it on my room wall in my house as a proof of my achievement. That way, someday I would be able to tell my kids the story of their father when he was young.

Okay, so I think I have to do lab again now :D. After I pass this JNCIP, I will have to renew my JNCIS-ER that is about to expire in next month. If I count it well, I have collected 5 JNCIS that is still valid now plus JNCIA-EX. And don't forget I'm still pursuing my CCIP. Well, I postpone it for a while since JNCIP is my priority now. Still a lot of work until the end of this year. I don't know if I would be able to accomplish all but I wish to and I also wish at the end of this year I will be able to play basketball as good as I was again.

Still struggling with my back injure as I spend one hour a day for the treatment. Well, actually in my condition, I'm still be able to play basketball but my movement is not as free as before. I score average 12 points on the practice session but I cannot do pivoting movement well and I feel really bad about it :(.

But I'm in good spirit now anyway, very good spirit :D.

Why are you so happy, Steve?

Approximately one months ago, I shocked one Excelcomm guy because I looked very different. He said to me "This is the first time I see you very happy" and he wondered why I looked that way. The reason is simple. At that moment, I just can barely walk without pain after thinking I will be in doom forever. The physiotherapy that doctor treat me in Bandung was really worked. And two weeks ago, all the pain disappeared. It's like a gift God give to me ^_^. And as usual I cannot resist the temptation of practising basketball again. But that was foolish decision - I realized it after it was too late!

Be in basketball field after a long time really made me happy. The wooden floor and leather basketball was acting like they called me. "This night will be a perfect game again", I thought at that time. Everything felt great, no pain no restriction. All system clear! And I tried to do several movements like layups and long shot. And one missed three points made me felt really awful. Not only because that was a bad shot, but when I did that, I felt something gone from my back. Like there was numb muscles and suddenly the pain came back again. Oh my!

Fear of unable being a normal person again, I rushed emailed my superior, asking for medical treatment the next days. She brought me to the hospital. Graha Medika hospital. The doctor there analyzed me and then he injected something - later on known as some painkiller - to my lower back and my upper bottom. 4 injections and I felt better. The pain was remedied a little bit but I felt slightly dizzy that day. And tomorrow will be two weeks since that incidents happened again. The pain is relieved slowly day after day. Even now I still have to be careful and wear a belt around my back everyday to prevent a wrong movement again...

And the worse thing is the doctor forbade me to do any sport activity at least for one month except swimming. But as you may know, I can't swim. And I have no time to learn swimming at the moment. The tasks from my office has already made me suffer enough in the recent weeks since my productivity decreased because in the recovery period, I need more rest than before. I don't care anyway, I'll do anything to be cured from my back injury totally and be able to playing basketball again in the future.....

Losing ?friend?.....again!

In the recent days, I lost 2 of my friends again...
I need several days to overcome this situation
But now, when all things are cooling down, I think it's not really bad to lose them anyway..

First, I don't want to have a friend who insults me and my family again and again...
And last time, that person did it in front of several people using his girlfriend as shield!
What kind of man he is? He definetely doesn't deserve to be my friend.

Second, I don't want to have a friend who thinks that others feeling is some kind of toys.
She doesn't have any respect of my feeling even I keep telling her that I'm really serious..
I told her that if she have already had a boyfriend, she must tell me since I wouldn't want to bother them and their relationship.
Instead, she deny that she has had a serious relationship with someone and try to use me to make her boyfriend jealous..
She thinks that some kind of funny thing to be laughed at...and that's really unforgiven!

Yeah, some people doesn't know us very well (how come?)...
So we cannot insist them to understand us and they cannot insist us, either..
Things that we think are exists as border between friend and lover, to them maybe doesn't even mean something...
Different people has different kind of perspective in what they perceive something in this world..
And if the difference is too deep, then the relationship will be ruined and there's no way to fix it..
We can't turn back time, can we?

For me, personally, it's really okay for losing friends since I don't wish to have anyone as my friend. I would rather have a small number of real good friends than have a great number of people declaring as my friends.
That's my policy and I don't think anyone can order me to change that..
I'm the kind who's not afraid being hate by people in this world as long as there is still someone who walks along the path beside me...
For her, I would give my oath and obey her whole heartly for the rest of my life...