Sunday, January 3, 2010

The Reason

Last chrismas, I gave two gifts to two person in my office. The first person is the best chat friend in the office. I think she is really nice and deserves it.

While the other one went to the person who I really want to give. I don't know her much but many times I asked myself : would I regret if I don't give her? And the answer is a big yes. So I decided to give her as well despite of lack communication between me and her.

When I gave her, honestly I felt very awkward because I could guess she would question the reason behind my action. So I gave her in a very fast manner she could not have a chance to reject it. Well, I consider myself cheating on this, but at least my mission is complete :P.

And I was very happy when she said thank you with a big smile. It felt like I wanted to shout loudly to celebrate it. But it didn't last longer anyway.

Soon she questioned my reasoning for giving her - as I expected. And I couldn't say anything, telling her I felt awkward as well as I realized our relationship was never been too good. She said such an action would be unnecessary and she may reject it depend on the reason I have.

I can understand why she said that. The most difficult thing in our relationship is I'm still an bachelor and she has told me that she is already in relationship with other. I know she is a very attractive woman and honestly, if God gives me a chance to know her a little bit more, I think I will take it. But that maybe not the thing she wants from me. I don't know. I'm inexperienced for this, but I will try to get the answer from her in the future for sure...

A New Beginning

Another year has just come. New hopes, new wishes and new spirits will color this very new year. 2010 would be an exciting year I guess :).

Looking back to past year, there are things happened and I'm so glad that I have passed through another hard year. Actually 2009 would be the most impressive year in my career as I had finished some projects and still be able to take some certifications.

Certifications I was able to achieve on 2009 are listed below :

1. JNCIS - M (renew)
2. JNCIA - E
3. JNCIS - E
4. JNCIA - FW
5. JNCIS - FW
6. JNCIP - M
7. JNCIS - ER (renew)
8. JNCIA - JUNOS
9. BSCI - 802-901

Among all my listed certifications above, I am very proud on passing JNCIA-JUNOS because I took it only a few months after it has been made available. I think I don't have to talk much about it but anyone who knows the nature of IT will know that it proves something I'm able to do. However it's not a merely certification that can determine an engineer skill. So I'm very glad that in 2009 I was given a chance to work on some interesting projects for Indosat, Telkomsel, Telkom and XL.

My last project is still continuing to 2010. It's a firewall migration projects for Excelcomm GPRS network. This project alone has taken almost all my time and energy. I even have to spend my christmas night on XL site because of it.

And meanwhile my boss was so kindly this time, by asking me if I want to take JNCIE - M earlier this year, I refused straightly. It would be a complete suicide if I took the offer, because although the firewall and router shares the same OS - JUNOS, but the behavior and limitation is very different. And there is another reason I reject this offer : in the year 2010, I will enter another vendor environment - Alcatel.

And I hope in this year, my company will grant my request for joining ENS training. The only expired certification I have in the year 2009 is ENA. And it was not because I don't want to renew it, but my superiors rejected my request on the beginning of 2009 for extending ENA. They argued that my company is no longer sell Extreme products so I was too lazy to take any further comments.

And since they offered the chances of having ENS training just a few weeks ago, I surely wouldn't missed it. Hope they can approve my request for it and make 2010 a completely exciting year.

Happy New Year Everyone ^_^.